Thanks that really means a lot. Everyone tells me to let him go and hes not good for me. My parents used to like him until they found out he went to prom with someone else while we were together, but thats way too long of a story to try and explain. He says hes in love with me but if he did and he cared about me the way he says he does he would of never gone. I really don’t think I would be feeling like this right now if he never went. That totally destroyed the way I view him now as a person it just makes me think if he can do that he will do other things. I mean I told him I was thinking of leaving him when that happened and he got so scared and said a bunch of sweet shit like all guys do and I gave in. That was two weeks ago and now it seems like hes back to him old self where hes too busy to talk to me but when he thought I was leaving him he wouldn’t leave me alone. It’s like he sets me into a trap I’m just scared if i leave him he will find someone new and replace me and I’ll be lonely
My boyfriend and I have been together for almost two years and honestly been through hell and back. I love him but I feel lke I’m wasting my time. Recently he went to prom with some girl but thats a whole different story. I just can’t get over the fact that he actually would do something like that to me after he said he would never hurt me again. All guys say that though, I know that already. I never thought he was that shallow though. I have some serious trust issues with this kid but recently I made him show me his phone and found nothing wrong. It sucks that I can only trust him to a certain extent though. I can’t stand the constant worrying. I’m not the same person I used to be. I’m 18 and about to graduate highschool. I should be happy and enjoying this summer as much as I can right? I just hung out with some old friends yesterday and I was so happy. My boyfriend hates when I chill with my friends because he doesn’t like what they do which makes it really hard for me to see them without worrying that it might start a fight if I go out. I really don’t want to be miserable and kept inside my house or working all summer. I’m just so tired of this lifestyle. I want to leave him but I don’t. I’m scared I’ll regret it if I do I’ll want him to take me back and he won’t. I guess it’s just comfortable I don’t want to be lonely. It will be hard if I find someone new and explain why my head is so fucked up now. It will be really weird waking up one morning without his goodmoring messages or talking to him on the phone at night anymore. Even if we aren’t together I’ll be worried hes replacing me with someone else. I wish he can just understand everything that hes put me through. I’ve never hurt this kid once and he’s done so much damage to my self esteem and my whole outlook on love now. I just want someone I can have a healthy relationship with. I want someone I can have fun with and not have to worry every second of the day while I’m at school, work, or with my friends on what hes doing. I understand the fact that we’re both only 18 and we won’t be together forever. It would be nice if we had a healthy and trustful relationship. I just want his old self back. I hate how he gets. When he thinks I’m leaving he will do everything in his power to make me stay and say he will change his nasty atittude he gives me for no reason sometimes, but then it goes back to the same shit a week later. I’ve never posted anything like this before but I really need to vent and I don’t really have anyone else to vent to. No one can understand I just can’t find the right words when I’m actually talking to someone about this. I’ve given him so many chances but I just can’t seem to let go…






